LOOONNNG Post (Gotta Catch You Up) :-)

This is going to be ONE LONG POST – just letting you know up front. I wouldn’t want to shock anyone. :-)

I know it’s been a while since I have done any type of “blogging” on a regular basis. I have been battling illness for a while now and went to the doctor last week. Come to find out, I currently have extremely low blood pressure (80/58). That sounds dead to me, but since I am still up walking around, I can’t be dead. No wonder I’ve been tired as hell lately and getting dizzy for no good reason. I haven’t even been able to think straight or get the right word out of my mouth for about a week. How it got that low, nobody knows. What can I do to change it? The doctor said to include more fluids into my system. I already suffer from low blood count. I was told a few years ago to stop donating blood because although I have enough for my body, I have no extra to spare.

I’ve also been having problems with my throat. I feel like there is a lump in it and it feels swollen to me, but after an ultrasound, nothing was found swollen inside my throat. They had me swallow barium last Thursday while being x-rayed to see if there is anything lodged in my throat. There wasn’t, but they did find that I have a slight case of acid reflux and that I have a small hiatal hernia. I was told nothing by my doctor on how to handle either of these situations. Actually, I haven’t even had a phone call from my doctor with the results of my tests. I heard all of this from the person actually performing the tests. That gives me a lot of faith in my doctor. NOT!

Things are going well at work. I think my problem with SUB is that I just needed to figure out her personality. For the most part, she is fine. She has her days like everyone else. On those days, it isn’t just me she gives a hard time to, so I guess it’s just time for me to stop taking things personally. She has stated that she is a first born (which I am too), but it has made her extremely bossy. Her mom used to bribe her to tattle on her siblings and watch them while her mom was doing chores around the house. I guess that’s where “each person or situation is different” can really come into play and I need to remember to take that into account.

The Guy I Work With (GIWW) – he’s the only man in our whole office – has a few habits that drive me NUTS. He is constantly talking to himself. Out. Loud. He loves to hear his own voice and doesn’t like quiet of any kind. It drives me nuts! He tends to give me a headache which wouldn’t be bad except that my headaches have a tendency to turn into migraines. Not. Fun. At. All. I feel sorry for the guy because he is the only guy in the office and there are 7 of us that work closely each day. He is also under the false impression that I am his secretary and am there to mail merge his documents, put his names and addresses into Excel files, and do all that other “secretarial” stuff. That is NOT my job and not what I was hired for. My job is to deal with all incoming correspondence whether by mail, phone, or email; to answer all phone calls; and to take reservations. PERIOD.

Our group is actually in 2 buildings (converted houses). In the “house” we work in, there is 1 bathroom for 4 people to share. The other house has loads of bathrooms because it is a converted B&B. Anyway, I find it amazing that a 30-year old man has a problem hitting the toilet on a daily basis. And. He. DOESN’T. Clean. After. Himself. That’s the worst part. I am not his wife, mother, sister, girlfriend, or any relation to him. I do NOT want to clean up his bodily fluids. I don’t like doing that after H and I married the man.

My office is having babies galore. One woman had a baby in December. One just had a baby in April (she’s still out on maternity leave). One woman just found out she’s having three! This has made me feel a little heartbroken, but I am completely excited for each of these women. I would love to be any of them at this moment. H and I were thinking that maybe we need to talk about children again. We know the only way for that to happen for us would be either adoption or being artificially inseminated. We have talked long and hard about this for the past two weeks. We have contacted our insurance and found that fertility of any kind is not covered. That kind of tells us what we needed to know. We just need to be content with our circumstance.

We’ve decided to pare down our belongings and plan on staying in our 1276 sq ft home for another 8-10 years (possibly longer). We really don’t need to move any time soon. It’s just the two of us and a small dog. I was thinking the other day that my grandparents moved into their 2-bedroom house when my dad was 6-months old and his brother was 3. They lived in that house until they both passed away. They lived there for over 40 years. We really don’t NEED a bigger house. If we learn to live smaller, we can have a better future, we can even continue living the way we are and possibly take more trips throughout the year.
I don’t think I need to make this post any bigger than it already is. I hope you all have a great week. I will try to be more consistent in my posting.